danlansdowne | House and Real Life

I realized while watching House tonight that I'm Wilson. I have/had a friend who confessed to being very House-like, and I can't deny the similarity. I recently ended the relationship (if I can call it that) out of jealousy, heartbreak, and because of several promises that were made and now appear unlikely to be fulfilled. I felt used and cheated, and rightly so.

However, watching tonight reminded me of the good times we had and could still have. Despite the pain, I still want the good things, even if just as friends. I left open the possibility of us being friends again when I ended it, but pointed out that it would take a while before I was ready to fully be friends again. The friendship needs to be renegotiated, but I think it's still possible. I just don't want to make the first move; my pride won't let me go back with my tail between my legs, making me a bit like House, too.

If you're reading this (and I know you're still interested in reading my journal) and you still want me around, I'm willing to listen. Things won't be the same as before, but hopefully we can make them better over time. It still hurts to see what's going on in your life, but after a while that should get easier. I just need some space right now. It's up to you. You know my e-mail address.